Misplaced anger?

Yesterday I did the right thing. I even felt good about it. Today, I'm a little annoyed. I might be jumping the gun with my aggravation, but just putting it out there to see what the IF blogosphere thinks...

I mentioned in an earlier post that my younger brother's wife found out she was pregnant while I was stimming for my 2nd IVF cycle. They elected to tell us in person a few days after my cycle was canceled, which was about a month ago. SURPRISE! (I can't even begin to go there...)

Anyway, it was my SIL's birthday yesterday and I decided to buy her a gift cert for a pedicure. I figured that would be a nice gift for a newly pregnant person supposedly suffering from exhaustion. Whatever. Along with the gift, I bought them both a congrats card - specifically the card said, "and baby makes three, congratulations to the parents-to-be." That was the only card I could purchase without puking. Every other card mentioned things like: dreams coming true, God giving you a family, blah, fucking blah.

I thought buying the card would be the hard part, but I was wrong. What does an IF older sister suffering from extreme envy write in a card? Deep inside, I really am happy for them, very deep inside. It's just that this damn jealousy and sadness for myself pervades most of my other feelings. Anyway, I decided to write from the heart and not ignore the obvious elephant in the room. I told them how happy I was for them. I told them that I never wanted them to feel that they needed to hide their joy from me and my DH. We were so looking forward to meeting our niece or nephew. I apologized if my reaction was in any way awkward the night they told me. I told them how grateful I was that they understood my pain and didn't judge me for it. This was kind of a lie - I don't think they have even a little clue as to my pain or they would have NEVER come to my house to tell me their good news. They would have known that I would have to fight like a warrior not to cry in front of them. I signed it, I love you both.

This was yesterday. I left both cards inside their house (I have the code to get in and had a snow day.) I haven't heard from either of them yet. Maybe I wouldn't hear a thank you for the gift. But I surely thought I would have heard a thank you immediately for the hardest card I ever had to write. It's now 6:20 pm and still nothing. I'm hoping I'll be able to update this blog and say that I heard from them. But honestly? What the shit? How did they not call me right away? They most definitely have NO idea how hard I'm struggling. They can't possibly know how hard it will be for me to watch my very tiny, very cute, SIL grow a perfectly round basketball bump on her belly. If I don't hear from them by tonight, I swear to God, I'm going to pray that her facial features spread and her ankles, ass, feet, and thighs swell as well.

Any thoughts?