This was a big night for me. I received my first blog comment, ever. I actually cried! Someone out there heard me and could relate. OH MY GOD, I'M NOT ALONE!!!! Actually it is now quite evident that I've never been alone. I cannot believe how many of us are out there. After reading so many different blogs tonight, my head is spinning, and my heart is breaking. And yet, underneath it all, strangely enough, I find there is still hope.
Ah, good ole' hope. Even though it may just be a tiny sliver of light, it's there. It's what keeps me going - I'm thinking it's what keeps us all going. The hope that when this journey, road, course, whatever you may call it, is over, we will be mothers, one way or another.
I read this posted anonymous prayer tonight (thank you, Angry Infertile) and the following excerpt from it really touched me. "While I would never have chosen infertility, I cannot deny that a fertile woman could never experience the joy that I know awaits me."
4 little letters create a word with such healing potential...hope. May whoever reads this find it and keep it in their hearts during their darkest hours. We are not alone.
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Hello from the abyss! Welcome to the infertility blog world. Nice excerpt. I have found that not only does blogging provide support from others, but the process of typing feelings out and then rereading them has really helped out my healing/grieving/hope process.
ReplyDeleteWe got a BFN from CCRM this past summer - we have two frozen embryos out there, and we are simultaneously working on the adoption process.
Keep writing and I'll keep reading.
No, I didn't get the cream. I will ask about it when I go in for my mock transfer in a few weeks. Thanks for stopping by the blogo. I'd like to read more about your story when you post it. About the cancelled cycles, and where you are headed next....
ReplyDeleteHi there! Welcome to the IF blogworld! I am sorry you are here, but know that you are in good company and not alone. You are right on, IMO, we always need HOPE.
ReplyDeleteI hope your appt on Monday goes well and you get some answers. What are the reasons for the cancelled cycles? I read through your posts and profile, sorry if I missed it.....
I could not agree more with the prayer excerpt. Infertiles have/will have a type of gratitude that others who have not traveled the journey cannot possibly understand. It's like being a war veteran vs. hearing about the war on the news. Two very different perspectives. Welcome to the world of IF blogging, Erica. I'm so glad you're here :)
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