Here and there

First of all, thanks for all of the comments - I missed all of you too. :)

Second, it seems that I still do have a UTI. This is so annoying...seriously. I just don't seem to be able to get rid of them. I'm back on Macro.bid for another 7 day cycle and then my OB told me to take one pill a night for the rest of my pregnancy - just as a precaution and to help prevent another one from forming. She said that particular drug is safe, so I guess I'll go with it. I'm trying not to over think any of this right now - still coming to grips that this might actually be happening. I don't think I'll have my big sigh of relief until they're born though. My mom told me that most pregnant women feel that way, so I guess it isn't just an infertile side effect. The weird thing is I've had NO side effects from the UTIs at all - no burning when I go to the bathroom, no feeling like I've got to go when I don't...I don't get it. Bleh - changing the subject now.

I had my work baby shower last Friday. It was really cute and the staff bought me a lot of great stuff from my registry. One of the girls even made me a diaper cake (I never thought I'd see the day..) It was pretty awesome - two of my closest friends put it together and I could feel their love. It's going to be really weird to leave work this Friday. My OB's office writes patients out of work at the beginning of the 3rd trimester when you're pregnant with twins. They're putting me on "limited activity" and will begin seeing me every two weeks for internals - ICK! I was also told to stop having sex. Not that I was having a whole lot of it, but still...kinda weird. Apparently semen can cause contractions and according to my OB, "thrusting can cause bacteria to form in the bladder." Hence, possible bladder infections... She really said that yesterday and I almost died laughing.

What else...oh yeah, I've gained about 40 pounds. Nice, right? Still hacking up mucus every morning which leads to the dry heaves and the explosive nose bleeds have started. None of that matters though. I know how lucky I am. Really I do.

Did I blog about my grandmom passing? I don't think I did. She passed away at the end of August. She was diagnosed with liver cancer on July 5th of this year when she went to see her doctor for some back pain. She died within a month and a half. She was a huge cheerleader for me during my pre-pregnancy journey. And once I was pregnant, all she talked about was how both her and my other grandmother could each have a baby while visiting. It kills me that she isn't going to see them. I visited her in the hospital the day after I found out that I was having boys. She was very weak at that point, but she definitely cracked a smile - kinda like, hehehehe good luck sweetie! I'm glad I was able to tell her that. Anyway, it's been a huge loss - one that I wasn't expecting. I'm going to end this post with a quote that she used to say about life - in fact, she said this all the time when I was in the midst of the ups and downs of IVF cycles. She'd say: It's not the stuff we worry about that gets us, it's the stuff we never see coming. How true that is for someone dealing with infertility and how true it was for the end of her life. I love you, Mom Mom.